PTP is probably the best thing ever happened to me. Coupled with the facts, tracking and tracing back to the road fate has shown, and destiny unveiling itself. I love my life now.
Not many people know, but I'm not going to open this to the whole world. You know means you know, you don't know means you don't. But you can always try find out luh, simple?
Anyways, i do feel stronger after the PTP, and the coming week will be the BMT. Hope i'll be able to survive through.
there's so much on my mind right now, i can't convey them out through this. it's something about everything - everything that has happened, everything that is happening, and everything that will happen.
bottom line for that will be hopes of a smooth BMT phase, and those monkeys don't cock up please. scolding is not essential and unnecessary if you just do your part. it's simple, like asking each person to break a chopstick together. if you can't do it, we'll do it again just because of you.
well you get to meet all sorts of people there, so no choice also. just hope those people will be enlightened and don't get the rest who just wants a smooth transitition into trouble.
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anyways, in a few hours will be date! hee.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
6 Days
Just a lil' update on my life. It's been rather interesting the kind of life i experienced these few days.
Friday was 4th Sept, my buddy Leslie's birthday as well. I wanted to wait until 11.59pm then call him to wish him, because a minute later he'd probably wish me. But heck that monkey called before my plan solidify, at 11.52pm! Argh.
But we went out that night to Jurong Safra K-Box to knock ourselves out singing. It was really cool. Leslie, Qing Ling, Boon, and me. 4 people, really fun =D Sang until 3+, then everybody walked home. We should do that often, but I guess that's probably my last time. And now I'd say, that is my last time. There shouldn't be anything like that anymore at least for a few months.
Saturday arrived on a sunny shine, went to immigration with my dad to settle my Re-Entry Permit thingy. NS has been bugging me about it, and thus. Ate Penang laksa at the place near aljunied, and there's also a Vegeterian Restaurant beside! Next time maybe can go there test test.
Slacked the rest of the day off, well I don't really have days like that to slack with. Especially with dad, very nice once in a while ^^ Homed around 2pm I guess, then continue slacking. Which I remembered about my library books, due next day.
I started reading a lil', got tired, slack somemore, com has been constantly revolving around utopia, dota, and facebook. I really wonder, there's nothing much to do on facebook except for me it's just a portal to remind you of friend's birthdays, pictures, videos, and if anyone has any interesting links. What can we do on facebooks? People, start posting weird/nice/emo comments on your profile so i can visit luh.
Till night, another round with the sisters begins. A very nice and simple home movie at lu's place. Denise, Regina, Yung, Lu, Ming, Ying, Tim, and of course the two very nice bfs of regina and lu + lu's brother :D
Actually, the movie wasn't very nice and simple. Supposedly a horror flick, but kinda like a comedy flick. Oh well, it's a very very old movie okay! It ended the night with Tim sending some of us home, thanks!
Sunday was nice, because met up with some sec school friends. Yun Ru, Jie Yee, Boon, Leslie, Glen, Eme, and her bf Winson. Went Marina Square, played pool and caught a really nice movie i recomend (but if you don't like UP, don't watch this then) "I Love You, Beth Cooper". It's another funny movie, but nearing the ending is quite warming. I think the message brought across in this movie is, 'Sometimes, you've got to seize the moment and let it all out. You'll never know any answer until you start questioning; You'll never find out anything until you start searching.' That movie was unplanned, and I think it might be just a hint for me to do something I might not have done otherwise.
Today, Monday. Went out in the early morning to Lavender for the Comex training. Quite interesting, first time I'm gonna sell something. Finally going to have a try on doing sales, lets see how will I fare, and if I'll like it. Been waiting for this opportunity for a while now. =) Got to know a few workmates too, and I'll be promoting their CamCorder. Might want to come take a look people? ^^
After the training, went with parents to visit my grandparents. Hougang, quite far eh. But we just have to go visit mah. After visiting, went to the same place eat Penang Laksa (cause mom got craving =.=). It's also quite nice to spend the day eating with them aye. Eh, not that I don't eat with my parents often. Just we don't go out often to eat nice food mah :D
Did some other errands before heading home. Another impulse decision led me to Bukit Panjang with Wei Kai @ 10pm. They just finish their YOC2 today, so the meet up was pleasant. Walked and talked, until Han Bin's house, but he playing. So we went to find Zhan Yu too, and back to Han Bin's house, with ultimately ended all of us in his room watching him, and afterwards a few youtube shows. I showed them some interesting things I've been watching for the past few days, Extraordinary People.
Interested to know? Ask me! ^^
Caught I think the last second or last bus home. And reached back around 12.15am, did the usuals and now here I am, writing this lengthy post update.
I just realized, I'm 6 days away from NS, but I'm only left with 2 days of freedom. It'll be spent meaningful, and ultimately, I'll make the best of myself in NS. As best as I can try to be. --> This is for you, ming!
Friday was 4th Sept, my buddy Leslie's birthday as well. I wanted to wait until 11.59pm then call him to wish him, because a minute later he'd probably wish me. But heck that monkey called before my plan solidify, at 11.52pm! Argh.
But we went out that night to Jurong Safra K-Box to knock ourselves out singing. It was really cool. Leslie, Qing Ling, Boon, and me. 4 people, really fun =D Sang until 3+, then everybody walked home. We should do that often, but I guess that's probably my last time. And now I'd say, that is my last time. There shouldn't be anything like that anymore at least for a few months.
Saturday arrived on a sunny shine, went to immigration with my dad to settle my Re-Entry Permit thingy. NS has been bugging me about it, and thus. Ate Penang laksa at the place near aljunied, and there's also a Vegeterian Restaurant beside! Next time maybe can go there test test.
Slacked the rest of the day off, well I don't really have days like that to slack with. Especially with dad, very nice once in a while ^^ Homed around 2pm I guess, then continue slacking. Which I remembered about my library books, due next day.
I started reading a lil', got tired, slack somemore, com has been constantly revolving around utopia, dota, and facebook. I really wonder, there's nothing much to do on facebook except for me it's just a portal to remind you of friend's birthdays, pictures, videos, and if anyone has any interesting links. What can we do on facebooks? People, start posting weird/nice/emo comments on your profile so i can visit luh.
Till night, another round with the sisters begins. A very nice and simple home movie at lu's place. Denise, Regina, Yung, Lu, Ming, Ying, Tim, and of course the two very nice bfs of regina and lu + lu's brother :D
Actually, the movie wasn't very nice and simple. Supposedly a horror flick, but kinda like a comedy flick. Oh well, it's a very very old movie okay! It ended the night with Tim sending some of us home, thanks!
Sunday was nice, because met up with some sec school friends. Yun Ru, Jie Yee, Boon, Leslie, Glen, Eme, and her bf Winson. Went Marina Square, played pool and caught a really nice movie i recomend (but if you don't like UP, don't watch this then) "I Love You, Beth Cooper". It's another funny movie, but nearing the ending is quite warming. I think the message brought across in this movie is, 'Sometimes, you've got to seize the moment and let it all out. You'll never know any answer until you start questioning; You'll never find out anything until you start searching.' That movie was unplanned, and I think it might be just a hint for me to do something I might not have done otherwise.
Today, Monday. Went out in the early morning to Lavender for the Comex training. Quite interesting, first time I'm gonna sell something. Finally going to have a try on doing sales, lets see how will I fare, and if I'll like it. Been waiting for this opportunity for a while now. =) Got to know a few workmates too, and I'll be promoting their CamCorder. Might want to come take a look people? ^^
After the training, went with parents to visit my grandparents. Hougang, quite far eh. But we just have to go visit mah. After visiting, went to the same place eat Penang Laksa (cause mom got craving =.=). It's also quite nice to spend the day eating with them aye. Eh, not that I don't eat with my parents often. Just we don't go out often to eat nice food mah :D
Did some other errands before heading home. Another impulse decision led me to Bukit Panjang with Wei Kai @ 10pm. They just finish their YOC2 today, so the meet up was pleasant. Walked and talked, until Han Bin's house, but he playing. So we went to find Zhan Yu too, and back to Han Bin's house, with ultimately ended all of us in his room watching him, and afterwards a few youtube shows. I showed them some interesting things I've been watching for the past few days, Extraordinary People.
Interested to know? Ask me! ^^
Caught I think the last second or last bus home. And reached back around 12.15am, did the usuals and now here I am, writing this lengthy post update.
I just realized, I'm 6 days away from NS, but I'm only left with 2 days of freedom. It'll be spent meaningful, and ultimately, I'll make the best of myself in NS. As best as I can try to be. --> This is for you, ming!
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Measure your Life in Love
I have exactly 15 days before enlistment. I seriously can't wait, reasons after another, I'm not sad nor afraid. I'm in fact very excited to go in, experience the other life I've heard for over 4 years. In 15 days, I will begin another life in there. Will I get a new meaning to my life before that?
I just watched '1 litre of tears' movie. It's touching yes, but the idea of simplicity is so hard to achieve if we don't even work hard for it. We take things for granted, and the meaning of living to us is?
There's a question raised during the movie, she asked the doctor "Will I be able to get married?"
I think I know the answer, but will I ever understand that pain and longing to be loved? Family love is one thing, Friends love is another. What she felt is true, but she'll never get to experience that other side of love.
It's ironic when yesterday I was just thinking of weird weird things like coma and being disabled for a period of your life. This girl was disabled for the rest of her life, slowly getting worse each day.
I doubt I'll even be as strong as her, or even a quarter of strength that she has. So how do you measure your life? She measured it with her experiences, that she struggled to live on and feed on memories and experiences that we take for granted - walking, writing, speaking, studying, and even working.
I have close friends who tells me things like, 'if I were to get disabled or something, I'd rather die.' Reason? 'I don't want to be a burden to others.' Or is it so? The courage to face the reality is really that hard?
I will learn to appreciate everything I have, and everyone I have now. Life is not only measured in how much love you recieve, but also how much love you give.
I just watched '1 litre of tears' movie. It's touching yes, but the idea of simplicity is so hard to achieve if we don't even work hard for it. We take things for granted, and the meaning of living to us is?
There's a question raised during the movie, she asked the doctor "Will I be able to get married?"
I think I know the answer, but will I ever understand that pain and longing to be loved? Family love is one thing, Friends love is another. What she felt is true, but she'll never get to experience that other side of love.
It's ironic when yesterday I was just thinking of weird weird things like coma and being disabled for a period of your life. This girl was disabled for the rest of her life, slowly getting worse each day.
I doubt I'll even be as strong as her, or even a quarter of strength that she has. So how do you measure your life? She measured it with her experiences, that she struggled to live on and feed on memories and experiences that we take for granted - walking, writing, speaking, studying, and even working.
I have close friends who tells me things like, 'if I were to get disabled or something, I'd rather die.' Reason? 'I don't want to be a burden to others.' Or is it so? The courage to face the reality is really that hard?
I will learn to appreciate everything I have, and everyone I have now. Life is not only measured in how much love you recieve, but also how much love you give.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Innocent Steps
I think the movie is underrated! I just watched it, and it's so nice and heart warming. Much better than UP anyways! >,< Or maybe it's just my thing for liking this kind of films. HAHA. I'M NOT A NORMAL GUY. Now don't think otherwise. Hurhur.
A Short MV from the movie
I especially like the part where the girl talks about the firefly in love theory! =) It's so cute and interesting.
But here's the bad part, everything in the movie is so dreamy and sweet, it'll probably never happen in real life luh. =/
So, EMO!
A Short MV from the movie
I especially like the part where the girl talks about the firefly in love theory! =) It's so cute and interesting.
But here's the bad part, everything in the movie is so dreamy and sweet, it'll probably never happen in real life luh. =/
So, EMO!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
The Plan
Tomorrow is bound to be interesting. 3 program. Weird, but yes.
I'm gonna head out early 930am for tanning session with KZY, till around noon lunched, and around late noon go home, change, prepare to go out for dinner.
Dinner with Sisters, location TBA, time 6pm. Hopefully it'll end around 8, then I'll make my way down to catch a movie with the gang.
Movie will be 'The Proposal', 9.30pm at Marina Square. Events after that, TBA.
Anyways, someone said something pretty interesting which I last time used to take as my concept for quite some time le. Until now that this person suddenly mention it again, it's become refreshing for me - "Movies like The Proposal I think watch with the person you love will have more meaning."
True aye? But oh well.. The more I think, the sadder I'll get. The more I try to catch that bubble in the air, the faster it'll fly away and burst.
Maybe sometimes, most of us are just afraid to touch that bubble, because we're afraid of it bursting. When it does, the show is over. If it doesn't burst, congratulations! Will mine burst? Hurhur. Should I just watch or try to catch that bubble?
This has been raised to me very ocassionally and pretty much been setting me to think. Sometimes I think only older girls understands me and choose to be with me, simply because they are mature enough to understand me, and I understand them as well? Am I really mature or not?
Do I deserve anyone at all?
I'm gonna head out early 930am for tanning session with KZY, till around noon lunched, and around late noon go home, change, prepare to go out for dinner.
Dinner with Sisters, location TBA, time 6pm. Hopefully it'll end around 8, then I'll make my way down to catch a movie with the gang.
Movie will be 'The Proposal', 9.30pm at Marina Square. Events after that, TBA.
Anyways, someone said something pretty interesting which I last time used to take as my concept for quite some time le. Until now that this person suddenly mention it again, it's become refreshing for me - "Movies like The Proposal I think watch with the person you love will have more meaning."
True aye? But oh well.. The more I think, the sadder I'll get. The more I try to catch that bubble in the air, the faster it'll fly away and burst.
Maybe sometimes, most of us are just afraid to touch that bubble, because we're afraid of it bursting. When it does, the show is over. If it doesn't burst, congratulations! Will mine burst? Hurhur. Should I just watch or try to catch that bubble?
This has been raised to me very ocassionally and pretty much been setting me to think. Sometimes I think only older girls understands me and choose to be with me, simply because they are mature enough to understand me, and I understand them as well? Am I really mature or not?
Do I deserve anyone at all?
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio
I stumbled upon something really interesting!
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio :
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer
rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves.
Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio :
"To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most-requested column I've ever written. My odometer
rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more:"
1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
27. Always choose life.
28. Forgive everyone everything.
29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
30. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
33. Believe in miracles.
34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
37. Your children get only one childhood.
38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
42. The best is yet to come.
43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
44. Yield.
45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.
Friends are the family that we choose for ourselves.
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Half-half
I think today I shall do something really random bah. I'm gonna take out a phrase and elaborate!
Daughtry - No Surprise
(p.s. It's on my playlist, the chorus part)
Confession. The person could be trying to confess a long and hidden crush, that "it came out like river once I let it out" shows that the confession is a really long piece. The person might also be really shy and does not know how to say it out, after all, it's a deep and possibly strong emotion towards the other person.
"Held onto it forever, just pushing it down" suggests the duration of the entire period of crushing and hiding of his emotions towards the other person. And ultimately he reveals everything very straightforward-ly and he felt that the most direct and straightforward approach is most appraisable as he felt he "shouldn't have to give a reason why".
However, the sad fact of this confession is that the person possibly felt that the other couldn't 'return the emotions', so it wouldn't be a surprise that after the confession, he will leave forever. Even though he knew the confession will end up being possibly apart and away from the person he carries the emotions for, he is indeed surprised at his patience of being able to stay until 'today', and then finally giving his confession. The last two sentence suggest his confessions have been ultimate and thorough, leaving nothing behind, and hinting there'll be no more regrets and he have said everything.
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OKAY THAT WAS A REALLY BAD ATTEMPT AT LITERATURE! omg.
But think, how did I come up with all that?
Daughtry - No Surprise
(p.s. It's on my playlist, the chorus part)
It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever, just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Confession. The person could be trying to confess a long and hidden crush, that "it came out like river once I let it out" shows that the confession is a really long piece. The person might also be really shy and does not know how to say it out, after all, it's a deep and possibly strong emotion towards the other person.
"Held onto it forever, just pushing it down" suggests the duration of the entire period of crushing and hiding of his emotions towards the other person. And ultimately he reveals everything very straightforward-ly and he felt that the most direct and straightforward approach is most appraisable as he felt he "shouldn't have to give a reason why".
However, the sad fact of this confession is that the person possibly felt that the other couldn't 'return the emotions', so it wouldn't be a surprise that after the confession, he will leave forever. Even though he knew the confession will end up being possibly apart and away from the person he carries the emotions for, he is indeed surprised at his patience of being able to stay until 'today', and then finally giving his confession. The last two sentence suggest his confessions have been ultimate and thorough, leaving nothing behind, and hinting there'll be no more regrets and he have said everything.
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OKAY THAT WAS A REALLY BAD ATTEMPT AT LITERATURE! omg.
But think, how did I come up with all that?
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